Jered’s Story

Jered is not an artist, an intellectual or a poet … he’s just a beautiful man in mind, body and soul, a man like so many of us. From an early age he’s felt a little different. Seeing himself as straight, he had certain curiosities, but nothing came of it, until . . . his story follows in his own words.

I am 36 years old, and have always felt slightly different. Growing up, I had curiosities, but nothing more. I lost my virginity at 14, and have always been very horny and lustful since. I always had the curious thought, but never had a chance to act on it. I think it led up through several milestones or experiences.

I picked up the trade as a carpenter very young, and still practice as a hobby. At age 23, I was working on a man’s house, who was kind of feminine, my first experience around a gay man.

He flirted with me, which opened new windows for my imagination. Nothing happened, I didn’t even know what to think at the time. Then a couple of years later, I was remodeling a gay man’s condo, and was exposed to some gay porn, which reinvigorated my previous curiosities.

Nothing happened there either, just the male mind swimming with thoughts. I was married during both times, and we ended up divorcing later for other reasons. After which, I became desperate to give in to the curiosity, which led me to a cruising spot by a lake, where I received and gave my first blow job to a complete stranger.

Realizing the danger in that kind of activity, I backed away from it all together. By this point, I had moved on from working as a carpenter to selling lumber, and spent a lot of time in customers offices. I became friends with an openly gay male, at a customers office. He would flirt, and I would respond that I was straight, but I always had questions for him. This is the big changing moment for me…… One night, he had a football party, and invited some co-workers and myself over to watch a big game. After the game everyone left, but I had a few too many beers, and volunteered to stay, and help clean up, in hopes to sober up some, and drive home.

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Diego Brando … A Man With a Soul He Can’t Share

Diego is a photographer. Like countless other married men, he keeps a lifelong secret. But then we’re a secretive bunch, we have to be. Our wives, fathers, friends may not accept the things that cross our minds each day. They may not understand we were born the way we are and little can be done about it … but keep it secret.

So it’s my good fortune to have crossed paths with this man. With me he shared his secret, and now he shares it with you, a secret he deals with by sharing his body with other men through his pictures. Below, Diego Brando tells his story in his own words

Diego Brando. Is that my real name….not likely. So who am I? I am your husband…your son…your brother…your uncle….I am the guy next door.

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You all know who I am, because I am a part of your lives.

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You all know and love me….. but would you feel differently about me, if I told you that I am gay? I believe that most of you would! For that reason, I haven’t told you….any of you.

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When I was 12 years old, I fell in love with my best friend. No one can choose where the heart leads. My best friend became my wife 10 years later.

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After more than 30 years of marriage I am still in love with her. She is still, and always will be, my best friend.

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On some level, I have always been a gay man. But I fell in love with a beautiful young woman!

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I am quite certain that she knows that I am gay…..but this is something of which we never speak. If it is left unsaid, then neither of us has to face it.

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A Look at Over Sixty-five

Now in his sixties, Richard has liberated his reflections, his perspectives and his body. Here he has chosen to share his thoughts, his biography and his physical beauty.

Born and raised in a working class neighborhood in Detroit, Richard’s father worked in the auto industry. The youngest in a large Polish,Catholic family, he is the last of the nine children that survived, five years younger than his next oldest brother.

Richard describes himself as an actor, with different parts to play as he made his way through life’s various chapters; no script and no director telling him what he was to do.

After graduating from High School, he worked several years full time and came to the realization that there was no place for him in the factory.   He went back to school (eventually full time) and got a degree in English, finding himself channeled into teaching by default.  After getting a teaching certificate and a Math minor, he landed a job in the Detroit School System and completed a Master’s degree in Middle School Mathematics, then went on to teach math in an inner city middle school for 30 years.

In his own words:

On the home front, as the youngest, I saw my parents through to the end of their lives.  All of this time, I was trying to figure out who I was as a person, spiritually and sexually.  I married and moved to Windsor, Ontario just before I was “50.”  I commuted across the border daily. It was easy because I drove the opposite way of rush hour traffic.  Easy till 911 when it became a nightmare.

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Male Sexuality

Male Sexuality

What does male sexuality have to do with Martin Brant Novels?

Within the general brotherhood of man, concerning male sexuality, a significant percentage of men live with a closely guarded secret.  More common than most people think, these men are dealing a same sex attraction.  Most people, other than those they may have shared their secret with, don’t realize how many men have some degree of sexual attraction to other men.  Contrary to most moral codes and various religious beliefs, these feelings are quite common and natural.  They are feelings that number among the human emotions I deal with through the characters in my novels.

A writer’s first priority, mine included, is to tell a good story.  Any writer worth his or her salt wants to create a thoughtfully written story and entertain those who read his or her work.  It could be a murder mystery like my latest novel, Copperas Cove, where Jonathon Scott, recently divorced, leaves Pittsburg to start a new life and finds himself entangled in the bigoted dramas of 1950s Mississippi; or a WWII action/adventure like The Partisans, where two men on an important mission in France stumple upon a bright new future; or a tale of romance like A Song in the Park, where two men at odds with their past cross paths and start facing life’s challenges together.  Good stories have characters and characters have personalities, personalities that are very much a part of the whole and make for a more intriguing book.  Often the character’s personality can be a story within a story, or it can be the story itself, as in books such as Catcher in the Rye, or my first novel Five Married Men.

Why the element of same sex attraction?

For me it’s a fascination with the vast diversity of human nature.  It’s a part of the human race that, for various reasons, many don’t understand.  Many of us have been indoctrinated to belief there is something wrong with being attracted to a member of our own sex, which includes the majority of those who are.  These are the men who keep secrets, who often feel guilty, who somehow believe there is something wrong with them.  Though you may not feel attracted to members of your own sex, you know someone who does.  It may be your bother or sister, your neighbor or a colleague at work, your cousin or best friend; it may even be your husband or wife.  And chances are you don’t know their secret exists.

Considered a blessing or a curse, or both, the degree of same sex attraction varies from one man to the next; from a mild curiosity that leaves him feeling either guilty or warm inside, to a full blown and exclusive attraction to one’s own sex.  Though the same holds true for both men and women, my focus and my novels are about men (and the women in their lives).  And for some reason, same sex attractions seem more prevalent in men, though it is also considered by many as more unnatural and less acceptable.

So why would an author that wants to write a compelling mainstream tale include characters with a same sex attraction?  Maybe I believe human sexuality in itself is compelling.  Maybe, through my novels, I would like to help broaden human understanding.  Maybe a part of me wants to say it’s okay.

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Some men open the door to self-discovery, as Julian attests to here: he has experienced an enlightenment few men allow themselves to explore, a completeness. From Julian, in response to this piece.

I love this article. It does feel like a gift. So well put.

It comes to the heart of the matter and shines a light on ones own capacity to feel with intimacy the beauty in male and female and know it is wonderful. It is freeing.

Writing about it openly for you to share is cathartic and restorative at the same time.

Knowing and being bi-sexual that you who is reader this is are likely bi-sexual as well, with a similar understanding, we have much in common, we are alike kinfolk.

It is as if we could lay next to each other without reservation.

Recognizing bi-sexuality in oneself becomes a catalyst for putting down so many views about having to be this way or that way, rather be both ways and neither at the same time.

There are all those ideas with their genesis in school yards and bedtime fantasies, over the years evolving to prompt thoughts like ‘what if I am gay, oh my god’. Now when the mood takes I can feel it as positively yummy.

But hang on I love women, surely I must be heterosexual. What about the qualities in each I so enjoy, that I relate too.

So maybe am I transsexual or transgender. Do I even know what that means. But I love my male body. Then comes, but how can I be both? What if, what could that mean?

Then bing, the light goes on. I’m really not this, I’m really not that, I’m all of them and none of them.

I’m so definitely bi-sexual, with lots thrown in. It is so nice to say.

But its much deeper than the label might suggest. Its meaning so much more than first understood. As one investigates ones own sexuality and masculinity or femininity, dare I say as a male my femininity, it becomes so much more. It is wonderful.

I can love a man and be fully with him as I can love a woman and be fully with her.

It is also the special quality of monogamy, devotion to that person and relationship at the exclusion of all others, when no-one else exists.

Of women in my life, paraphrasing from the words of your article Martin, I recognize my overwhelming attraction to her, of her uniquely feminine perspective. Her softness, her exquisite shape and innate capacity, her strength, her insights and intuitions, her nurturing love, her playfulness with the toys of femininity, her laughter with others of her sex, she is simply gorgeous.

For the moment I am single, how positively enriching.

Enough. J-

A Song in the Park

A recent review of A Song in the Park:

Mr. Brant, my name is Brian and I am 22 years old. I am roughly halfway through your novel, A Song in the Park, and I am absolutely in love with the story. It is one of the most well-crafted romantic stories I have ever read in my entire life. Your novel happened upon me when I had all but given up on ever finding a gay romance novel that truly spoke to my feelings and gave me something real. Not only is it a wonderful story and a superb read, it is also inspiring me to take on the novel writing challenge for myself. Thank you for the wonderful words in your novel, and also for the inspiration of taking my own novel writing journey.

Brian

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Misguided Religion

A letter from: Gay Lesbian Bisexual Trans-gender & Queer Jamaica Blog Watch Combo & More!

I am a young man living in east Trinidad. I am hardworking, loving, and ever-striving to be the best human being I can be. I am an upstanding citizen of Trinidad and Tobago and I am gay.

It is my understanding that an evangelical group is visiting Trinidad and Tobago from October 22 to 29 with the intent of spreading “God’s word,” but in reality is spreading hate against homosexuals…against people like me.

I can’t believe in this day and age people still have such dangerous biases. The world has changed a lot since I was going to school where all kids would beat up the “gay boy,” and I thank God that we’ve evolved to the point where people can be respected, and such pointless violence is at a minimum.

Gay marriage is legal now in a lot of countries and we have come to accept homosexuals and bisexuals as part of society. We still have a long way to go, but now these people are trying to drag us backward into the dark ages.

I believe God intended his ministry to spread a message of love, respect for one’s fellow man, and respect for others, even if they are different. However, I believe that as a result of this group gays will be portrayed in a negative light, and will incite and brainwash those who try to be upstanding Christians into judging and hating people.

Gays will become a target for more radical action, and once again people like myself will be made to feel less than human, to feel wrong, to feel sinful.

Trinidad is plagued with violence and everyone is just looking for another reason to hurt someone.

“Love thy neighbour as thy self.”

Let us live in peace and Love, as Jesus showed us.

T JOSEPH

My Best Novel?

When I’m asked which of my novels is my favorite, I’m hard pressed to give an answer.  In one way or another, I’m attached to all of them.  I’m sure most writers are.  I can, however, talk about the one I think is best.  Though it sells the fewest copies, it’s The Strange Haunting of Johnny Feelwater.

There are a number of reasons for this; primarily it’s the unconventional way this story is told.  Like countless men in the world today, Johnny Feelwater comes to a point in his life he has to face the powerful laws of genetics, the laws that concern his sexuality.  The reason I use the term unconventional is because of the catalyst involved that puts him in this predicament, i.e. his so-called haunting; which I think may be the reason this novel doesn’t sell as well as the others.  Readers looking for an emotional human drama might, based on the title, pass on this story thinking it is more typical of books written in the supernatural genre.  Setting the record straight, though a supernatural element does exist in this novel, it merely exists to serve the aforementioned catalyst.  And, I might add, an intriguing twist.

The story deals with the complexities of human sexuality, the internal struggle a man faces in a society that tries to block the path he may have taken had he known it should have been open to him.  An inexplicable event in Johnny’s life exposes him to the most basic carnal instincts inherent in all of us, which point him toward the direction his sexuality would have led him had that door been open.  How all of this can affect a man’s life is the gristle and marrow of the story.

So if you’re looking for something to read, something about the drama of human emotion and sexuality, I hope you consider The Strange Haunting of Johnny Feelwater.  It’s a tale you won’t soon forget.

G0Ys, A Growing Phenomena

Note from Martin: I personally believe this movement is a positive thing for men, though certain elements cannot be condoned, such as criticism for the gay community and condemnation of anal sex. To condemn other people’s perspectives is to essentially condemn your own.

G0Ys, (spelled with a zero)

Masculine, basically straight, perhaps married, g0ys are coming into their own. They are men who recognize the emotional and physical beauty of other men. Their relationships with other men are solid and mutually agreeable, sometimes intimate, sometimes sexually active … as in hugging, kissing, showering, and even mutual masturbation, which may include oral.  They in no way fit the commonly perceived gay stereotype and shun activities that include drag, promiscuous sex, effeminate men and anal sex. Quite simply, they are men that appreciate the male form, male bonding and masculine activities.

Considering the broad spectrum of male sex, it’s a rather narrow self-definition of male intimacy, not that these men are concerned about labels.  They know who they are and they are genuinely grateful to have their perceptions. I am personally delighted to see the movement expand. Anything that breaks the barriers to a man’s natural desire for a close personal relationship with other men, or another man, is a step in the right direction.

Depending on a wife’s position, there is no reason married men can’t be gOys. Perhaps a few extra moments in the shower after a workout or a round of golf. Perhaps a little skinny dipping in a secluded river, or a thoughtful touch on the arm, or sitting around the campfire naked, maybe a kiss,  or an exchanged caress. It’s a way to enjoy being a man, of identifying with other men, of brotherhood and trust, of being close, of knowing a magical kind of body chemistry and exploring the mysteries of the male form. To the majority, perhaps, such activities practiced by a married man might be labeled infidelity or homosexuality, though it has nothing to do with anything other than mutual male attraction and responding to male genes.  There is no reason a man can’t be a devoted, loving husband, while at the same time enjoying some level of intimacy with a trusted male friend.

From G0Ys R Us (A forum for G0ys)

G0ys R Us is an initiative to support the g0y movement. Without you, we would not exist!!!

You may be here because you feel completely alone in your situation. After all, you’re basically a regular guy who behaves like any other regular guy. You may even date women or be married.

But, deep inside, you deal with strong feelings of real warmth + genuine affection for other guys too. You’ve seen the media’s take on the “gay” community; & not only do you N0T relate to that image, but you find many of the practices repulsive to your basic value system. The truth is, you’re a guy who really loves masculinity & appreciates those traits in other men, while simultaneously finding actions that effeminize masculine men to be grossly distasteful .

You probably look forward to holidays with your buds — especially those times when you can horse around, wrestle & even be a little tender — like when you’ve had a few beers (or maybe just got done pinning the guy down wrestling) & you find your arm around him, resting a hand on his upper or lower back in a casual, reaffirming hug. You’re the definition of “respectful”, but you want to be closer, too.

G0Ys as defined by the Urban Dictionary

G0YS (Spelled with a ZER0) are guys who find men physically & emotionally attractive, but (for whatever reason) are offended with the stigmas that currently define the ‘gay community’ in the public psyche. G0YS recognize that the “gay-male” community tends to embrace every gender-bending act, fetish & affectation; –And include those things in the general specter of the image that “gay” projects publicly. The easiest to observe example is the commonly used acronym “GLIT” (sometimes “GLIB”) meaning Gay, Lesbian, Intersexed, Transgendered (or BiSexual). The fact that “GAY” is grouped with “Intersexed & Transgendered” is evidence to our primary point showing what the term “GAY” has morphed into. G0YS reject those associations completely & consider it a form of prejudice against men who love men. Behaviorally: Anal-sex is innately shunned by g0ys – as it represents the ultimate form of sexual disrespect whether male/male or male/female. Other distasteful stereotypes include (but are not limited to): Effeminate behavior, extreme passivity (like cowardice) & drag. G0YS don’t call other men “girl”, “bitch”, “queen”, etc. You probably get the idea. G0YS also reject (due to well developed theology), the lax & lazy prejudices that have arisen in conservative fundamentalist circles against all same-gender sexuality.

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Buddies, Beer and the Blue Jays

Here’s a blog written by a thoughtful Bi-married guy in Toronto.  I think he’s on to something.  He’s organized a group for bi-married guys in Toronto to get together and socialize, even develop deep personal friendships.  Every city needs something like this, since bisexual men identify with each other and can form honest open friendships without keeping up that familiar facade. Check the blog out at The Bi Married Mafia.

From Bi Gentleman in Toronto:

Last night I had the occasion to go to a Blue Jays game with a new buddy from out Bi Married Beer Night. We had a great time (and to boot the Blue Jays mopped up on the Minnesota Twins!) We watched the game, made some noise, talked deep between innings, and drank beer. After the game, we went to Nathan Philips Square with what seemed the rest of Toronto and talked late about life, marriage, relationships, exes (which he spent an hour lecturing on why he thinks mine are delusional) and pretty much anything else that was relevant to our lives at this time.

These beer buddies, meet once every couple of weeks at a local pub. We sit around and joke, laugh, and talk. Most are married and deeply in the closet. Most struggle to walk this life with some measure of “clarity and decency. “ For most, this is the only group of people that have some idea of the truths of the lives that we live. Most of us chat a few times a week with each other on the internet and have actually become friends… some are more to themselves.

There is an African Proverb that says, “He who never travels thinks that his mother is the best cook.” The power of perspective and experience cannot be understated.

I am a fortunate man. I have a number of deeply close straight friends that I can talk to about just about anything. They know about me (and I know their stories as well) and we talk. I love these straight friends like my own family and have been fortunate to receive that love and acceptance back. Still there are some things that, though I can surely tell them about… they just are unable to fully “get” simply because of the limitations of their experiences and understandings.

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